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Saturday, March 25, 2017

The Boy

The Boy
Saturday, March 25, 2017
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I always thought I would be a "boy mum". But after having Alice, I realised I'm far more of a "girl mum" really! I loved buying all the cute dresses, plaiting her hair and taking her to ballet. And now suddenly, I have a boy too! Because Tommy is no longer a baby, or a toddler. He's a boy.

He loves cars. He's obsessed with them. It's the only toy he'll ever ask for, other than maybe a panda. His cot is filled with little toy cars and he has to hold them in his hands to fall asleep. Often in the night, I hear cars fall out the cot and crash on the ground (he doesn't wake up, thankfully!). His favourite colours are blue and green (which makes brown when mixed together, another favourite colour!).

Of course, in lots of ways little girls and boys are the same. They both love climbing trees and play fighting and sliding down the stairs on their tummies. But in lots of ways, they are totally different too. It's weird because, now Alice is in school, Tommy and I have actually had some time together, just the two of us. And I feel like we're just getting to know each other! I'm so used to them being a pair, having to deal with the both of them at the same time and now it's just us all day long together! He makes me laugh so much, with his crazy faces and the need to tell me that everything is "poo poo" and "smelly" all the time!

But of course, just we're getting used to each other and starting to get into a routine of being at home and going out just the two of us, everything will change again! Because this not-so-little boy, starts nursery in September. And I remember just how much Alice changed and seemed to grow up when she started, so I'm totally preparing myself to see a huge change in Tommy when he goes. It's actually mad how quickly they grow up. Like, ridiculous.

I thought I would write this, because I haven't really written a lot about Tommy on the blog and I think it's because, like I said, I'm so used to dealing with both children at the same time! So here's a little post for you Tom. My crazy, cheeky, kind, sensitive but totally bonkers little boy. I love ya.

xx


Friday, March 24, 2017

5 Photos that make me smile

5 Photos that make me smile
Friday, March 24, 2017
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I've been looking back through my blog and I've found 5 photos that make me smile so much! 

This first one was from Thomas's first birthday party. I had some helium balloons for the kids and Alice and her friend Mia just loved playing with them so much! I think they liked the balloons more than the bouncy castle! Haha!
 This was Easter last year. We went to a National Trust place to do their Easter hunt. Alice got her face painted like a rabbit and it totally made her day! 
 SUMMER! Need I say more! The sun is out, the water is out and the kids are having the best time!
 I love blossom. I'm a little worried we have missed it all this year, which would be gutting! This is from Bushy Park last year when we heard the blossom was out and drove straight over to snap some pics! Please tell me I haven't missed it this year!! 
 I love this photo because look how knackered we all look! It was so hot on holiday and the kids were always so shattered. They both took naps which never happens! This is just before I put them both down for one, and probably had one myself. But it was the best holiday. Take me back! 


Thursday, March 23, 2017

It all became too much

It all became too much
Thursday, March 23, 2017
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You may have recently seen my latest YouTube video, where I announce I will be taking a break from vlogging. If you haven't seen it, you might not know why, so I thought I would write it all down too! Firstly, I am not taking a break from this blog. In fact, I'm going to be posting a lot more now. I feel excited to create new content and to be back working on a platform that I have loved from the first time I hit publish on my first post! My blog has given me an amazing creative outlet, a way to record my families journey and I would not be without it!

YouTube gave me so much joy. At first. I felt so eager to create content and have it up that I would often put vlogs up on the day I filmed them! I was so excited to keep creating more and to try out new ideas. To film more, to capture more, to show you more. I got excited every time I posted a new vlog and couldn't wait to find out how many views I would get, what the comments would be, how many new subscribers I might get.

And I guess looking back, I can see those warning signs. Looking for approval, for likes and pandering to what people wanted to see started to have a really bad effect on my mental health. I found myself creating content that I didn't necessarily enjoy making or watching myself. I started comparing myself to others, especially those more successful than me and analysing why they were going better. Were they prettier, did they have a more exciting life, were their houses better than mine?

Social media has changed so much. There are now so many platforms and the competition to be heard is so fierce. Not only are people posting instagrams, but they are also doing instagram stories and instagram lives. Add to that keeping your Facebook page relevant, doing Facebook live videos, tweeting non stop, promoting your latest video, snap chat... I mean the list goes on. It became all consuming, and a battle I was NEVER going to win. Ever time I thought I was ahead, I would find someone else doing it better than me and having more success and it made me feel inadequate.

Ultimately, it was my family and my children who suffered. I look back at some of the vlogs I made and I WASN'T THERE! I was literally stood behind a camera, trying desperately to capture those moments that I thought people might want to see.

Finally I asked myself what it even was I wanted to achieve? Seeing other vloggers announcing they were leaving jobs to do YouTube full time started to make me see things for how they were. This job was not one that I wanted. It was too much for me. To constantly compete with others, to have to continue putting every aspect of my families life online for the World to judge and to keep making myself appealing to advertisers and brands so I could make a living from it was overwhelming and quite honestly, filled me with dread.

I have always loved this blog, but it was getting neglected. I was getting swept up in creating content that didn't mean anything to me and it was making me sad and down.

I want to get back to doing what I love. Back to where this all started for me. This blog. I feel this blog is so much less intrusive on my families life. I can whip out my camera, take a few snaps and put it away. There's no time line for posting, no pressure to pander to what people want to see and (this may sound awful), but it can be far more controlled and edited. Which means I can decide how much to tell you, how much of my family to show. Of course, I will always be honest! But I can do that in a way that protects my families privacy. And they need that. They deserve that.

Where does this leave YouTube? I'm not sure. Maybe I'll return after a break, but with different content. Or maybe I won't. One thing is for sure, this blog ain't going anywhere, so be sure to follow along!

Thanks for always supporting me everyone. It means a whole bunch!
xx


Saturday, March 11, 2017

Our Everyday Moments

Our Everyday Moments
Saturday, March 11, 2017
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Thought I would start doing a diary style post once a week on the blog. I feel like I've stopped documenting a lot of my family and it's made me feel a little sad, as I used to love reading back old posts and remembering all those little moments!

The last few days have been amazing, and just what we all needed! The sun came out and it has felt like Spring! I'm talking, no coats and lots of garden play :) This has been a much needed break from all that blooming cold and rain which had really started to affect my mood. Doing school runs when the World looks so grey and then having to sit indoors as it torrential rains is not so fun. SO we lapped every moment of the sun up this Saturday and spent most of it outside!

Alice and Tom are such outdoor children, which I love. One of their favourite activities is digging up worms to investigate. Can't say this is MY favourite activity of theirs, but each to their own! Dave and I worked on the garden a little, mowing the lawn and weeding. So we're like, proper adults now! Haha!

If the weather is still good tomorrow, we are hoping to get out to the park. I've been playing around with my 50mm lens, which I haven't used for ages for some weird reason, and I think I've fallen in love with it all over again! So expect lots of pictures from our weekend coming soon :) xx












Monday, March 06, 2017

My Skincare Favourites!

My Skincare Favourites!
Monday, March 06, 2017
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I've never really written about my skin care routine, or favourite products before. I have done a couple of YouTube videos about it, but it feels like it needs a place on my blog too! I'm going to be changing the content up over here, so if anything you really like catches your eye do let me know!

We are in this awkward between-seasons time at the moment. The sun keeps showing it's face which means my skin becomes dry and, being fair, it can even burn! On top of that, we still have our central heating on most of the time, which can also dry out my skin. So my skin care routine mainly consists of getting moisture back into my skin, and protecting it from sun damage and ageing.

I love the Quick Fix facial masks you can pick up from pretty much anywhere (I got mine from Tesco!). It's an anti blemish mud mask and dries super fast on your face. I find it really helps to get rid of those little blackheads and the dryness around my nose!

For every day, I'm still loving the Simple range. I use the moisturising facial wash because it's really gentle and kind to my skin and removes every inch of make up. I'm left with super soft skin that feels full of moisture and not scrubbed to an inch of it's life!

My favourite moisturiser right now is Loreals Revita Lift! It is an anti-ageing moisturising cream, which comes in my favourite colour, pink! What I love about this, is that it has an SPF 30 within it, so it protects your skin from all that evil sun damage! I feel it's light on my skin, but thick enough to really put that moisture back in. I use it twice a day around the delicate skin under my eyes as this is where I tend to get little lines and am most worried about the condition of my skin. After 3 weeks, I have DEFINITELY noticed an improvement in these little lines, which has made me very happy!

Hope you have enjoyed reading about my skin care favs! Let me know if you would like to see any more beauty related posts from me!






Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Hurry Up Spring!

Hurry Up Spring!
Tuesday, February 28, 2017
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The sun is definitely coming out more now! And the daffodils have bloomed where we are too, so spring is definitely on it's way. We are such an outdoor loving family. We all seem to completely thrive in the outdoors. We argue less, we have more fun and we all sleep so much better too! It's amazing what a couple of hours taking a walk through the woods or a pretty park can do for you.

I'm so looking forward to spring now. The warmer weather, the brighter evenings and the pretty flowers and blossom. I can't wait to be able to walk to school under green trees and have picnic dinners in the park afterwards. I'm definitely going to work on our garden this year too. I have lots of seeds I want to plant and I'm buying a little greenhouse to get the vegetable patch going!!

So come on spring. I am so sick of walking to school shivering and waking up to depressing grey skies!!







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