This parenting thingy can be REALLY hard sometimes! Alice has been teething AGAIN and waking at 4.30am every morning, unable to go back to sleep. This means that I have been up at 4.30am every morning. Let me tell you something, 4am is NOT morning. I remember the days where I would go out and end up falling into bed at 4am. Now I'm getting up at that time! It's crazy.
Some days have been so hard I could literally cry all day long. Alice has been tired and grizzly, so have I. I ran out of food for her the other day and went into a mini meltdown before making her cheese sandwich's instead. She loved them. She was fine. But I just felt like a total failure as a mum. Who runs out of food for their baby? Seriously?
Another brilliant moment was when I left the bath running and it began to overflow. Why did I do that?! And then, to top it off when I emptied it I realised all I had filled it with was cold water! So I had to start all over again, by which time Alice was rubbing her eyes and yawning like a trooper... this sleep deprivation is not fun at all. I am a living, walking zombie. I have barely eaten, barely sat down for more than 2 minutes and barely slept.
The good thing about this blog is that I don't tend to document these really tough times. And if I do, I always include some happy, feel good pictures. This blog is my escape. My little window into a happy place where Alice is the perfect baby and I am always happy and wearing make-up. So the other night, when Alice had finally fallen to sleep, I spent the evening looking back at my blog, and updating my Pinterest with all the cute photos!
Now excuse me, I have left a packet of biscuits on the floor and Alice is already half way through... doh!