Turning 30

If you didn't know, I'm now 30. Eek! I don't really make a big deal of my birthday, I'm not sure why. Because I'm actually super excited to be in my 30s now. I spent my 20s struggling with money, being pregnant, having babies, getting fat, getting thin again, being sleep deprived and generally clueless.

Sometimes I think I haven't changed at all and I'm still completely clueless. But when I look back at my 20 year old self I realise that's simply not true. I am a much stronger, braver and better put together person. This is partially due to all the mistakes I've made while raising my children as well as the countless times I've broken down and decided I'm a rubbish mother. Or I can't do it. Or my kids deserve better.

All those times have made me a far more confident and appreciative mum and women. I feel more in control of my life now than ever before and it's a great feeling. I guess, I feel like an adult (only took 30 years!).

I'm not setting myself any goals for the next 5 or 10 years. I'm not planning my future anymore and I am certainly not going to think about all the different paths I could have taken in my life anymore. Because if I have learnt anything at all from my 20s it's that all you really have in life, is the here and now.

So my plan for the future and for my 30's is to live for the moment. To notice more. To spend more time with people I love and to be kind to myself. Always.